Remember how, not so long ago, I was craving for some stability and predictability in my life? How I was so tired and drained of being unsettled? Sure, I still made the best of all that uncertainty that shadowed me throughout most of 2013, but the truth is I was pretty happy to suddenly have figured myself out.
Or did I?
Now that I’m on a slightly more stable position than a year ago (I guess anything is more stable than an unpaid work experience with no future employment opportunity), I find my mind wandering off into spontaneous decisions to bring in some adrenalin and excitement. This makes me realize that, as much as I want to fight it, I’m just not cut out for routine.
While I thought I was kind of settling down – Subconsciously, I’ve been taking decisions that would break my daily predictability:
- I joined a profession in which I might be pulled into 2 weeks travel on a super short notice (like 3 days notice!).
- I’ve moved to a flat on a rolling short-term let agreement, which allows much easier (and quicker) moves across the city.
- My weekends are as spontaneous as my wallet allows them to be.
All those months I thought I just couldn’t deal with another day of insecurity and instability, and now I come to believe that this unpredictability, freedom and change are precisely what fuels my energy and motivation – and my gut already knew about it all this time!